Pain of Separation

This is Part I from the Sce­ne, when Jamie rea­li­zes that he is not dead, and the sepa­ra­ti­on of Clai­re beco­mes con­scious.

Pictures from Outlander

The whole Scene

While he had always thought of Pur­ga­to­ry as a gray sort of place, the faint red­dish light that hid ever­y­thing around him see­med sui­ta­ble. His mind was clea­ring a bit, and his power to rea­son was com­ing back, if slow­ly. Someo­ne, he thought rather cross­ly, ought to see him and tell him just what the sen­tence was, until he should have suf­fe­red enough to be puri­fied, and at last to enter the King­dom of God. Whe­ther he was expec­ting a demon or an angel was uncer­tain. He had no idea of the staf­fing requi­re­ments of Pur­ga­to­ry; it wasn’t a mat­ter the domi­nie had addres­sed in his school­days. While wai­ting, he began to take stock of wha­te­ver other torments he might be requi­red to endu­re. The­re were nume­rous cuts, gas­hes, and brui­ses here and the­re, and he was fair­ly sure he’d bro­ken the fourth fin­ger of his right hand again — dif­fi­cult to pro­tect it, the way it stuck out so stiff, with the joint fro­zen. None of that was too bad, though. What else? Clai­re. The name kni­fed across his heart with a pain that was more racking than any­thing his body had ever been cal­led on to with­stand.

If he had had an actu­al body any­mo­re, he was sure it would have dou­bled up in ago­ny. He had known it would be like this, when he sent her back to the stone cir­cle. Spi­ri­tu­al anguish could be taken as a stan­dard con­di­ti­on in Pur­ga­to­ry, and he had expec­ted all along that the pain of sepa­ra­ti­on would be his chief punish­ment — suf­fi­ci­ent, he thought, to ato­ne for any­thing he’d ever done: mur­der and betra­yal inclu­ded. He did not know whe­ther per­sons in Pur­ga­to­ry were allo­wed to pray or not, but tried any­way. Lord, he pray­ed, that she may be safe. She and the child

Some Moments later

The thought of her this time cau­sed only a wave of ter­ri­ble lon­ging. God, to have her here, to lay her hands on him, to tend his wounds and crad­le his head in her lap. But she was gone — gone away two hund­red years from him — and thank the Lord that she was! Tears trick­led slow­ly from under his clo­sed lids, and he rol­led pain­fully onto his side, to hide them from the others.Lord, that she might be safe, he pray­ed. She and the child.

Would he find Clai­re at once when he died, he won­de­red? Or per­haps, as he expec­ted, be con­dem­ned to sepa­ra­tion for a time? In any case, he would see her again; he clung to the con­vic­tion much more firm­ly than he embra­ced the tenets of the Church. God had given her to him; He would res­tore her. For­get­ting to pray, he ins­te­ad began to con­jure her face behind his eyel­ids, the cur­ve of cheek and temp­le, a broad fair brow that always moved him to kiss it, just the­re, in that small smooth spot bet­ween her eye­brows, just at the top of her nose, bet­ween clear amber eyes. He fixed his atten­tion on the shape of her mouth, care­fully ima­gi­ning the full, sweet cur­ve of it, and the tas­te and the feel and the joy of it.

see her again

Both suf­fer so much during their sepa­ra­ti­on..Clai­res Pain 

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Quote and Excerpt by Diana Gabal­don from “Voyager“
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  1. Norma D
    February 28

    The color & tex­tu­re is per­fect to con­vey the pain Jamie must have felt. It is beau­ti­ful and tra­gic at once.. Very well done.

    • Heike Ginger Ba
      February 28

      Hi Nor­ma,
      espe­ci­al­ly at this pic­tu­re, I’m glad you like it:). The wor­ds of Dia­na are very emo­tio­nal and the pain is abso­lute­ly noti­ce­ab­le and were so real for me. The pic­tu­re is for days in my head and I am glad that it has beco­me so well. Hei­ke

    April 26


    • Heike Ginger Ba
      May 15

      Hi Jaque­line..

      glad you like what i do…hope to see you soon again.. LG Hei­ke

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