Decision

The whole Scene:

Ratio­nal­i­ty did not appear to be help­ing much. I turned to emo­tion, and began, shrink­ing from the task, to recon­struct the details of my mar­ried lives—first with Frank, then with Jamie. The only result of this was to leave me shat­tered and weep­ing, the tears form­ing icy trails on my face.
Well, if not rea­son nor emo­tion, what of duty? I had giv­en Frank a wed­ding vow, and had meant it with all my heart. I had giv­en Jamie the same, mean­ing to betray it as soon as pos­si­ble. And which of them would I betray now? I con­tin­ued to sit, as the sun sank low­er in the sky and the swal­lows dis­ap­peared to their nests.

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Quote and excerpt by Diana Gabal­don from “Out­lan­der“
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